Untitled, Yes

What I would give to be back on the west coast with not a worry...

Thu, 23 Aug 2012 07:11:28 -0400

What I would give to be back on the west coast with not a worry in the world.

He’s in rehab. Our relationship is out in the open; His...

Thu, 23 Aug 2012 07:03:34 -0400

He’s in rehab. Our relationship is out in the open; His family knows. Oh boy.

I wonder why it’s so hard for me to stop thinking of...

Wed, 20 Jun 2012 20:06:03 -0400

I wonder why it’s so hard for me to stop thinking of it… All i’ve ever wanted was to be a mother, yet my greatest fear is my infertility. Is it so wrong that if that were all I amount to, to be a mother, that’d be enough for me? I know nowadays that’s such a lousy dream to have, but it’s all I’ve ever dreamed of. Not in some creepy commitment-crazy-psycho-baby-wanting-girlfriend-with-attachment-issues-type of way, frankly I’ve always been deathly scared of commitment, of losing interest in someone, but in I-have-all-this-love-to-give-and-this-nurturing nature-I-can’t-shake-off way. I was always the cold-hearted bitch, yet recently all I crave is a family. I have all these opportunities to be that crazy adventure-seeking 20 year old. I’ve always been so free-spirited, now all I crave is stability. It’s even scarier to want it with someone so badly, someone there’s no reassurance of actually ending up with due to crazy reasons. It’s SO scary to find the man of your dreams and not know how long you have before things get so complicated. I want to get out of this lull!

Everything that is meant to be, will find its way… I’m sure.

Hope I can get some more photographs of my tattoo before I get...

Sat, 16 Jun 2012 18:27:06 -0400

Hope I can get some more photographs of my tattoo before I get rid of it.

Photo

Sat, 16 Jun 2012 07:17:13 -0400

He’s gone on a business trip right now… he just left...

Sat, 16 Jun 2012 07:09:00 -0400

He’s gone on a business trip right now… he just left last night and I already miss him. As much as I may complain sometimes about how less complicated I wish things would be in our relationship (due to the religion thing) when I look at this, I realize that I could survive just fine if I could have tiny little moments like these, moments when nothing else matters and the world truly does incinerate.

This is the love of my life. I don’t take that lightly. I...

Sat, 16 Jun 2012 06:57:00 -0400

This is the love of my life. I don’t take that lightly. I truly do believe that he is The One. His name is Gabriel. He’s Orthodox Jewish, and I’m not. For those of you not familiar with Judaism, there is no intermarriage amongst that community. We are currently struggling with this issue, not because I’m not willing to convert but because 2 of his older brothers (his father died when he was 7 years old, he’s the youngest of 4 boys) do not see me as a human being, rather as a non-jewish woman. That is all I am to them. Throughout the blog you will see our story unravel. The beginning, ups, and downs of unrequited love in the 21st century.

Name’s Patsy. What follows this post will be a compilation...

Sat, 16 Jun 2012 02:56:00 -0400

Name’s Patsy. What follows this post will be a compilation of thoughts, events, experiences, opinions, pictures (mine and foreign) and everything that may fall in between. Never blogged in my life. Hope I do it right.